Well, since it's the first day of the year and all, I suppose I should join the rest of the world and set some goals for the year. I hate the idea of "resolutions." I feel like the word alone just sets me up for failure. Instead, I prefer goals. Something I can work for. As I was looking back over the past year, I realized that I hadn't officially set any goals for 2012. In hopes of having a better year, this year I am making certain that I do.
2013 is going to be the year that I find myself again...
1. In 2012, I reached my heaviest weight ever. I know it's probably not that heavy to most people, but its enough to make me feel uncomfortable. I have started to hate clothes shopping, and although I weigh a camouflage uniform everyday, when I am out of uniform I've resorted to workout clothes or pajamas, when I used to always dress up in skirts or more dressy clothing, just to feel like a girl. Losing 15lbs will get me back to a weight that I really felt comfortable with and I was able to maintain for quite a few years. The rest of my goals will, I think, help me to achieve this weight loss goal.
2. I have previously run two half marathons. I ran the Arizona Women's Half Marathon in November 2010, and the Disney Princess Half Marathon in February 2011. I really enjoyed running the half marathons, but more than that, I enjoyed the training - feeling like I could accomplish something new each week with a new distance or pace. Last year I gave it a half-hearted attempt, but really didn't make it a priority. This year I WILL make training a priority. I haven't picked out any races just yet, but I am eyeing the Diva Half Marathon in Myrtle Beach in April. My mom and I had recently discussed doing a girls' weekend that weekend. My mom doesn't run, but we made the Disney Princess Half Marathon into a girls weekend and had a great time. I think that training for specific races will also help aid me in weight loss - it will give me a consistent workout plan - and it will force me to eat better than I have been so that I am fueled properly.
3. Every year I attempt to read 50 books. In 2008 I almost met my goal, reading 48 books. This was because I had graduated law school in June of that year, and though I was studying for the bar exam that summer - I made sure to read a book for fun at night to de-stress, and it really helped! After the bar exam was over, I read constantly. Granted, I still have a job and cant just read for fun ALL of the time, but if I make time each night to read for even a half hour, I should certainly make my goal. Plus, reading really does help me de-stress at night before going to bed. Less stress will certainly help with weight loss, too.
4. In 2012, I felt very negative. I really let everything that was making me feel down just completely control and absorb my life. It was a horrible feeling, and one that I couldn't seem to let go of. This year, I vow to just not let the negativity affect me so much. Therefore, I am going to be sure to make a note of at least one positive thing each day. I did this for a month in 2011 when I was feeling really down and it helped. I am sure it will help even more if I keep it up for an entire year.
5. Finally, eating out a lot has taken its toll on me. It's not even just going out to dinners with the boyfriend. I resorted to eating takeout on a regular basis instead of cooking. Not good. At one point in my life (2010-2011) I went over a year without eating takeout food (with the exception of panera and chipotle). My body felt so much better not eating crap all of the time. But in 2012, I felt so negative and down and worthless, I just stopped caring. This is a horrible attitude. Plus, eating out takes its toll on my wallet, and I really need to get back to rebuilding my savings account. You would not believe how much $5 here and $8 there adds up over an entire month! I am also going to make a notice every time I do eat out, so that I can keep track of how well I am doing at this.
Overall, I really hope 2013 will be a better year - honestly, I just don't know if I could take another year like 2012. I miss being the "happy" me, and the "healthy" me, and the "fit" me. And I will find her again.
So far, I have started off the year on an ok foot. I was really sad this morning that Jasin was so sick. We are supposed to visit my parents in two days, and I am really hoping that he will be ok for our trip. So since he obviously needed to rest and get better, I was on my own today. I got in a really good workout this morning, and I am sure I will be sore from it tomorrow once DOMS has set in. It went like this:
20 jumping jacks
20 jumping squats
20 alternating lunges
20 mountain climbers
3 rounds for time.
I finished in 24 minutes, and my heart rate monitor said I burned 240 calories. Definitely not bad for the first workout of the year! After running some errands, I settled on a grilled chicken caesar salad from panera for lunch, and then set to work getting all of my laundry done (all 3 loads), and then cleaning out my closet. I live alone, and have a huge master bedroom with master closet all to myself. Which is fantastic! Except it was a serious mess. Clothes all over the place, random empty boxes, no sort of organization. And I cant even remember the last time I went through my clothes and got rid of that which did not fit or I would never wear again. So today I set to it. And really, it only took an hour and a half. I threw out a bag of shoes (ok, mostly flip flops that were kind of old) and then organized the rest of them. I then realized that all of my shoes are black - I really need more color in my shoes! I moved on to organize my purses - got this idea off of pinterest:
Finally, I went through all of my clothes and made 3 bags. One bag was for clothes that need to go to the dry cleaner. Mostly dresses, but also some uniforms. My second bag was for clothes that were for donating to Good Will. These are my clothes that I bought and wore once or twice but didn't really like or would never wear again. Then my last bag was clothes that needed to be trashed - these were clothes that I have owned for years, and just don't fit in anymore, but even if I could wear them I probably wouldn't. Like jeans from 4+ years ago. Overall, it was kind of a freeing experience. But now my closet feels empty. Guess shopping will be in my future. I still have to go through my dresser - especially my workout clothes - but that is for another day.